Rocking the Boat

The people pleaser in me didn't want to rock the boat. She won over for at least 10 years.
But the curiosity, desire for justice, and distrust in me has recently kicked the people pleaser's a$$. (Why do people do that thing with the $ signs? Does that make it less than profane?)

So, I knew it was coming. I knew that women couldn't be elders or deacons in the PCA church. But that knowledge didn't nullify the blow. (I am an "F" after all, not a "T") Maybe because I trust the bearers of the blow... maybe because it is just time to deal with the pain of this issue... I don't know why it is happening now and not 10 years ago... but it is time to delve into the depths... it is time to look at the pain that's there because of this male leadership stuff... and it is time to figure out where I stand and why I stand there.

I can't just pretend that the issue isn't that important. I can't just brush it off as something that isn't worth taking a stance on since I can't change what my church thinks. I can't just leave it up to other folks to figure it out. (The Lord knows, I wouldn't necessarily buy it, even if they did.)

Why? Why research the issue of women in the church? Simply, because I'm a woman and I'm in the church. God's word matters for me. Is He calling me to a submission that I haven't embraced? Or is the church supressing a call that God gives to women? This matters.